today i am having a hard time putting to words exactly how I feel. i'm feeling a bit numb yet still here and in the moment. not too anxious at least. i welcome the change of scenery work will bring today, although I'm not jumping out of my socks to be there. it's just ok....life's just ok.

the sun rose slowly today over a horizon that brightened brilliantly, only to gradually cloud over. that seems to be the perfect, nearly cliche, metaphor for depression. but the breeze is cool and refreshing, which is all i really need right now.

i hope today is a good day. 'getting through' is just the baseline of where i want to be, but for today, the baseline is ok. sigh.